Here's a little queer poem for ya!
Reveal What's Inside
Here comes a time I hope you will listen when I’m speaking freely without an omission.
I hadn’t the courage to tell you the truth, despite knowing it all way back in my youth.
Your statements that I was just being dramatic led to hiding my feelings, they were problematic.
It was wrong to show you how deep I could feel. My emotions were strong, but I assure you were real.
My too intense empathy, I thought came from you, but I guess I was wrong about that one too.
You aren’t a safe space to reveal what’s inside and so I retracted. Yes, I lied.
Because I was afraid of the terrible fallout so much more than I wanted to come out.
How could I possibly know which loved ones would stay, and which ones would go.
So I kept quiet, squished myself to a mold, trying to keep all these feelings controlled.
But don’t think upon you I place all the blame, for society curated most of my shame.
A man and a women, the idolized pair. My entire life I was taught that I’d share
The rest of my life with a man by my side, I was told what to want, no need to decide.
I never questioned if my attraction
was want and desire or merely distraction
From all of the noise outside of my cell growing up inside a Barbie doll Hell
Where women are taught to primp and to preen.
By every man, we must feel seen.
We must be beautifully kempt, from a flawless image no girl is exempt.
But I’m tired, it hurts trying to make it all work.
For years I’ve expressed that something is missing but this is about more than who I am kissing.
There’s a side of myself that I have ignored. I cannot live life like that anymore.
I’m making a change, I’ve come out queer. This major part, you don’t have to fear.
You don’t have to like it, or even agree, but this is the way that I want to be.